We, he and I, are heading up the side of a mountain. We are far from a beaten path. We are deep in the wilderness, like two ants wandering through a pathless sea of granite. We are, by choice, by design, days away from anything that isn’t covered in dirt, anything that isn’t feral, anything that doesn’t rise with the halo of the sun and sink into the slumber of the stars.
Read MoreFar off the beaten path the trees grow taller than you can imagine. Their steepled caps pierce the sky; their green heads and arms toss and clap and bow in reverence to the swish-swish-swish of the wind; their bodies, beautifully brown, are lined with thick black veins, where the blood of earth pumps in from root to heartwood. In the sharp drag of a deep breath, fresh and clean, a dank scent presses itself upon your lungs and drifts, like a flock of birds, across the ribbed landscape of your tongue. Crushed pine needles; grub-filled dirt black as tar; the soft floral of wild mint; the quench of life and moistness of death and decay.
Read MoreRecently, after a long streak of staying close to home, I ventured out to the Eastern Sierra Mountains. I wanted to return to specific landscapes, to Lyell Canyon and Rush Creek, for both personal and creative reasons. I wanted to return to a trail I'd walked seven summers ago.
It was a short trip, a turn and burn as we say.
It was the middle of the afternoon when the sun disappeared. One moment it was there, clear beams warm on my skin, and the next moment it was gone. Somehow, in a span of time so short it seemed immeasurable, life had drained from the day, as though the world dropped into a shadow.
Read MoreWe’d stumbled into the forest at sunset the day before, terribly exhausted, and desperate for a couple hours of sleep. We needed sleep, we’d been awake for close to 32 hours - but who's counting? And, as is always the case on our big hiking trips, we had a big climb the next day, 6,000ft of elevation to gain in the first 8 miles, to be exact - but again, who’s counting?
Read MoreI was trudging through the grassy meadowland as the sun began to set. Golden light filtered through scattered clouds, as bright beams of light transformed themselves into white sparkles on the lake, and danced across the surface. The water, which had been a beautiful blue when we arrived an hour earlier, began to turn as black as tar as night inched closer. My steps were slow and calculated, as to not break my ankle on a shadow or a hole or a rock; but the very best of my attention was transfixed by the lake…
Read MoreThe wind was beginning to shift and a ghostly chill, dry and crisp, hung heavy in the air as we packed our gear into our backpacks. The trailhead parking lot was empty, as expected; a storm watch usually keeps most people cuddled up at home, save for Zack and me. It has been a very long year, full of unimaginable losses and outrageous change, and we’ve been enduring it all at home. This short trip was our first chance to get away, to be free, to pay our respects; and nothing, not even the fright of a snow storm was going to keep us from it.
Read MoreSo many people in this world focus on can’t, don’t, and shouldn’t. Little by little, year by year, people limit the scope of their lives and the possibility that lives within their own abilities. It’s nice to be reminded that there are also people out there living differently. People willing to carry their fear and uncertainty with them towards a new experience, towards the grand adventure of their life.
Read MoreHe tilts his face up toward the ridge line. A bead of sweat drips from his temple, down his cheek, and falls from the edge of his jaw. The skin around his eyes furrows, liquid blue eyes trace the notched edges of the summit. Silence.
Read MoreWhen I blinked my eyes open this morning to drink in the first light of the day the sky had been limpid and electric blue. Stunning. Crystal clear.
Read MoreI’ve learned the criteria for deserving love, and it is more simple than I ever could have imagined.
To trust and to let go
Read MoreOne year ago Zack, Ellie, and I were rolling along a dusty BLM road somewhere at the foot of the Eastern Sierra.
As the Jeep skipped along the hole ridden, bumpy boondock road our butts hopped and bopped around in our seats and we couldn’t help but laugh. The wholesome yet funky guitar lick of “Althea” trickled through the speakers and the spirit of the Grateful Dead echoed through space as Jerry’s voice lightly brushed the words, “nobody’s messing with you, but you”.
Read MoreI like to be reminded often that yoga is a form of living art - a creative process. It reminds me that my practice is the evolution of my own spirit, a culmination of willingness that is hitched to the end of the level of attention and care I give it. It reminds me that purpose lies within willing hands and inspiration is always beneath two grounded feet.
Read MoreI use to think it was possible to protect myself from disappointment.
When I was a young girl I looked out at the world through my crystal, hazel eyes and decided that I would be a “people pleaser” kind of person, I decided that the pain and heaviness of disappointment would have to find someone else to bog down because there was no space for it in my little world.
Read MoreThe sun is setting on day 2 of 16, and rays of warm colorful sunlight are burning brightly from the west casting the shadow of my body long and large before me. A sharp feather edged mountain is rising up to my right, and a long valley is opening up to my left where the colors of the sunset are settling down in pastel purples and soft hues of blue. I stare at my shadow as I walk towards the top of the steep grassing mountain side I am climbing, the final push of today’s hiking.
Read MoreToday I am reminded of a woman I once met. We crossed paths at a department store in San Francisco twelve or so years ago and her flamboyant appearance and lively presence remain bold relics in my memory.
Even now, I close my eyes and see her perfectly.
Read MoreSimplicity exists on a spectrum. One far edge of that spectrum is blind ignorance, and the other I liken to exactness. Spending weeks walking through unbound open space during a long distance backpacking trip lies on this spectrum of simplicity, nestled near exactness.
Read MoreDuration: 15 days and 15 nights
Place: Sierra Nevada Mountains - Sierra High Route
Means of travel: cross-country backpacking on foot
Mileage: 160ish -165ish
Read MoreYears and years ago my beautiful family picked me up at midnight at my home in Marin and drove me through the blackness of the night to Yosemite National Park. And in the biting cold of shadowy darkness they dropped me off at the head of the John Muir Trail.
Their only instruction was to pick me up at Mt. Whitney 15 days and 200+ miles later.
Read MoreThe blanket of water is blue and green and glistening, crystal clear and biting cold. With all the snow the mountains received this year the water levels are high. All the alpine lakes are full, and this one is no exception. It is full up to the steep granite slabs that surround it in some areas. And as luck would have it we happen to be standing at one of those submerged steep granite slab areas right now…
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